Before the last Halloween pumpkin spoiled, the retail world was abuzz with Christmas. I’ve already combed through several “supposed” leaked Black Friday ads from major retailers. Looking through those ads, and circling my wants, has been a tradition of mine since I was a little girl. But unlike now, those ads didn’t appear in the paper until Thanksgiving. Never to spoil the holiday, but to add to the noise and excitement. Now, I already now that Target has nothing good come Black Friday, and I’m not interested in anything Walmart has to offer either. Partly, because as an adult I have most of what I want, but also I’ve come to realize that buying stuff just doesn’t satisfy me as it once did. In fact, I need to figure out how to get rid of things.
Without the Black Friday rush, I’m not sure how I will feel about this retail season. It’s hard to admit that that’s what this time of year has become, but it is a shopping quarter. If your not in the mood, as I’m not, how can you feel fulfilled? I’ve decided to start my happiness challenge as a gift to myself. In fact, it’s not a Christmas thing, I want this to last all year long. Each month I will challenge myself to a new happiness project.
November’s Happiness Project: Simply Expectations of Self
I have high expectations of myself. I have an image of myself, or how I should be, that I can’t quite explain. But it leaves me filling constantly unfulfilled. I’m too fat, or not outdoorsy enough, or not cultured enough. I need to accept the fact that I am enough. And remove these heights of self that I must measure up to.
December’s Happiness Project: Simply My Home
This will be more complicated. I don’t have an abundance of stuff. I do have a lot of items I don’t use, but swear I will someday. Most of these items are in my shed, out of sight. But every time I open the door I fill overwhelmed by the amount of stuff. It’s like having a messy closet; with the door closed you can’t see it but you know it’s there. Clutter is like cob-webs taking up corners of your mind, keeping you from true peace.